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Snow White's post about our first dance.

February 9, 2005. It was a hectic evening, and I was very indecisive.

I was on a wild goose chase for people that I liked, but failed to think of the person that loved me.

I actually decided on asking you that night when the lines were starting to form, but I did remember someone saying that you were asked by another guy. It was a friend of mine who said that, because I asked him if you had a partner.

I was a fool that night. I focused on the wrong people. Chased after the wrong people. But somehow, our paths met.

I think just barely finished dancing with one of my then-crushes. And you crossed my vision. I locked on.

As you put it:

As I was walking with Him, I could feel someone following us. Who could it be? I didn't know. But as the music of the acoustic guitar welled up on the function hall, I realized that the next few moments would be my best ever.

Yes, I wasn't going to sit down until I fulfilled my promise to you. I was going to dance with my twin sister, come hell or high water. And then, as if God Himself was controlling the music, the lyrics were so appropriate.

Back then, you cried to me. You lost something. I wanted to put my arms tightly around you, I wanted to just kiss you and hold you then and there. But sadly, our teachers were KJs. While you were crying, our class adviser was signalling us to keep our distance to conservative levels, but I paid no heed. It's as if that moment was orchestrated just for us. A few feet away was our Principal. He stopped our adviser and told him to let us be.

You were crying. I didn't know how to help you, so I simply did what I do best: be the smiling idiot that cheers you up. Somehow, it worked...one way or another.

For what seemed to be the longest song of my life, it felt as if time returned to its normal pace after the song, back from what felt like frozen time. Being the idiot that I was, I didn't know how to follow up. So I ran away.

It wouldn't be at least until two years later that I get to sing to you, from the bottom of my heart, that "I just can't believe that you are mine now."

February 9, 2012. Exactly seven years later, around the same time that we danced, we were on the bus. You said it was as if all the tears you shed for me has rendered you incapable of shedding tears for him. You said that you felt like you were always being left behind. As Col.Neo Roanoke from Gundam SEED Destiny said to Murrue,"This time, I'm not going anywhere."

I'll be here. One way or another. I'm not leaving you, I'll never leave you. It's a promise I made to you, and it's a promise I'll see to the end.

Other boys came to dance with me as well. But, as before, my eyes wandered off to the one who wears a sapphire ring. The boy with the child-like face. The only person in that hall to see my tears trickle down. Yes, up to the very end, I have waited for you, Appointed One. Hoping that you'd return to me and have me in your arms again. Praying that you'd say the things I have been wanting to hear from you. That I was all that you need to be with FOREVERMORE ---

The Appointed One is here. You need wait no more. I've returned to you, and I want you in my arms again. And then I can tell you in person.

MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL BE FOREVERMORE.

Good night, my dear. Tama na ang waterworks. Smile na ulet.